Dreams About Binge Eating: Do They Ever Go Away?
One of the most unsettling parts of my eating disorder recovery were the dreams about binge eating. These dreams which featured me eating too much and struggling with the guilt and my desire to purge followed me into recovery, and I was surprised: I thought when I decided I was done with my bulimia, my bulmia should be done with me.
Sadly, that wasn’t the case. The therapist I was seeing at the time, however, assured me these dreams are completely normal — and not confined to people recovering from eating disorders. What’s more, they may never ever go away completely, but as you move further into recovery, you will experience them less and less.
This has certainly been true for me.
As my therapist explained it to me, people recovering from any tramautic disease — from cancer to alcoholism — can have dreams where the disease is in control again. After all, the disease was in control for so long.
As with the dreams of binge eating, when I wake up from these booze-addled dreams, I am beyond relieved that I am sober and okay.
These dreams about binge eating and drinking make me more grateful than ever for the life I’ve worked toward. They can also make me regret all the time I wasted no getting better, sooner. Still, as my therapist reminded me, I couldn’t have started recovery a second sooner than I did. You’re not ready until you’re ready.
So, if you have binge eating dreams — or any dream that brings your illness back to life — remember that, no matter where you are in your recovery, you have come a long way and have learned many lessons. You don’t ever have to go back.
I try to let these dreams serve as a reminder of my strength, not my weakness.
Do you have dreams about binge eating? Share your experiences in the comments.